Well, I'm in a real different place after yesterday. I'm not thinking as much anymore of getting through to the surgery, but instead making the most of every day through several more months of treatment. I knew it might be a long slog, but now I know that that is the reality. I'm looking at 8 or even 12 more rounds of chemo, so my goal now is to be as happy and healthy as I can through the summer and fall, and get to radiation and surgery when it is time.

Chemo has been really difficult for me, but to the doctors I guess I'm the model patient. My weight has stabilized, I've been getting some exercise, my white blood count is good, and so on. So doing lots more of it is a no-brainer for them! They are going to reduce my dosages by 20%, and they also think my body may be adjusting somewhat, so they tell me it should(?) get easier. I hope so. Really.

I'm also going to try to get more out of my time when I'm vertical. One thing I'd like to do is to try doing some art; I've never taken an art class in my life. Does anyone know an art teacher who might come to my house and work with me?

I also might write more. But not as much about cancer. To hell with cancer.